Today is the 3rd day of the 3rd month and part 3 of “In The Fire”. Buckle up and get ready because this one is going to BURN….
Within the year, I’ve attended 4 funerals and have had to deal with extremely high levels of grief. This past Tuesday, my grandma took her last breath at 80 years old and on Saturday, I said goodbye for the last time. Of all the funerals I’ve attended, this is the one that broke me…….. Not only because I loved her dearly but because this whole situation was traumatic and emotionally straining from the beginning.
In early November, I got a phone call that my grandma was in ICU. When trying to figure out what happened, I found out that my mom had been trying to get hold of her for a couple days and ended up calling the police to go check on her. The police found her unresponsive on her bedroom floor and for 117 days, my grandma was in and out of hospitals, rehabilitation facilities and ultimately fighting for her life in ICU. What makes this mourning process so hard is knowing that my grandma wasn’t ready to pass – Yes, I am sure she is having a great time with Jesus in Heaven……. but I know she wouldn’t have chosen death if she was asked 118 days ago.
With that being said, I wonder how many of us are just wasting precious time and forgetting that each day is a gift. I wonder what someone would do differently if they knew the exact time stamp they would draw their last breath and say goodbye to this reality. I wonder how someone would respond if they were told they only had one week left with their family.
Are you confident enough in how you lived today to actually be okay with saying goodbye tomorrow?
HECK, I wouldn’t! Just thinking about it brings water to my eyes because I already have so many regrets…..
“I should have told my kids I loved them more instead of yelling at them for fighting with each other.”
“I should have told my husband how much I loved and appreciated him before it was too late.”
“I should have visited family more and told them I loved them.”
“I should have put my pride down and apologized…..”
I once heard someone say that Life isn’t about the amount of time you live but rather how wide you live it. Meaning, what you do while you’re alive, is more important than the days you’re alive. I love this saying because NO ONE has a perfect life and in order to live a FULL/WIDE LIFE, we must prioritize purpose. Meaning everyday, we choose to wake up with purpose and prioritize it over every other distraction that may come our way.
Distractions like…
Jealousy
Stress
Anger
Grief
Pride
Everyday we have a choice. Everyday we can crumble and fall or we can grow through what we go through.
This week, I want you to get out of the mess you thought you were stuck in and TAKE BACK YOUR LIFE. This week, I want you to see yourself as a victor and start trying to live a life you are proud of. TODAY, I want you to make yourself get up, even if it still hurts… Quit making excuses and just GET UP! RIGHT NOW, I want you to realize that there is so much more inside of you and YOUR BEST DAYS ARE AHEAD OF YOU!
You are a gift, this life is a gift and time is a gift! As long as their is breath in your lungs make sure to prioritize purpose… especially since you don’t know when it will be too late.
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